My Deepest Fears

My deepest fears….

 I turn my head to look and the road behind me covered in darkness yet I stand in the light. I take a few more steps ahead and there is a heavy sense of being followed and I turn my head again and right where I stood – covered in darkness. I hold my breath, it goes dead silent….. and then I hear them in the shadows ~scheming, plotting, conspiring, whispering and calculating~.

I stand in the light and few more steps and the shadow takes two more… turn my head again.. and they are more daring this time as they show the tip of their noses to the light and scream squeamishly as if the light pains them…and quickly disappear back to the shadows with just their sharp and yellowish teeth and bright lit red eyes….growling….~HHaaaa!!!! Yaaahhhh!!!! Shhh!!!!~. As a cold breeze blows from behind as dawn approaches and my shadow now placed behind my back.  

I take a few more steps – as I am upon it – A warm sticky, cold and slimy breeze flows from behind my ear…. and I hold my breath again ~a husky exhale followed by a deep inhalation~ I freeze, fearful to turn my head back yet again and as the sound stops with a slight nasal whistle….and then I turn my head back ssslowwwlyyy…….there stirring me in the face with a long sharp tongue, cracked and crooked nose burnt skin and a sagging chin as it whispers with a blinding stir ~Almost…. Almost.. Almost…Ours~ and slides back to the shadows against the walls of the buildings.

I grab my Jesus’ piece as it hangs from my neck….. my head to the skies…..which to my surprise are covered in darkness yet I stand in the light :

*The Lord is my Shepard…. Although I walk in a valley of a shadow of death…. I fear no evil because you are with me ……… *

and a calm voice with sadness speaks back to me:

“You left my house a long time ago my Son!!!!! and now I fear that your path has lead you to a place where my angels don’t tread….and there,  you are on your oooowwn………”

And from the darkness it whispers again as I stand in a spot light:

 ~Shhhhh!!!!! Just a few more minutes he is ours …Welcome….. Welcome ha ha ha ha ha Welcommme…&  now you shall be my son & I GRANT NO FAVORS IN MY HOUSE……~

Lord Ooh my Lord don’t forsake me now………